Home State

so many of you know that i braved the wilderness that is my boss's home state...Montana. it was a whirlwind of a trip, 4 cities (if you call some of them that) in 5 days...puddle jumping...hotel swapping. it was a very stereotypical business trip with a few highlights.

i'll be brief, as i haven't really had the urge to repeat this story over and over again...but i felt i must indulge my fellow netizens with my first experience in montana and as a staffer for the senate finance committee.

the main highlight would probably be the most nerve-wreaking as well. the charter plane with the boss, the big man, the senior senator from montana, Max Baucus. and when i mean charter plane, i don't mean a lear jet or any type of jet...i mean this:


yep, it was basically the size of our rental car (a midsized jeep suv). nice and cozy for the 6 of us, including the pilot. now it is known that i am prone to motion sickness, so i was terrified of the possibility of throwing up on the senator. luckily i was granted the co-pilot's seat, where apparently turbulence is lessened, and where i was able to make it through the flight safely and without projectile vomit.

and yes...it was cold for those who have never been "north". i don't mind the cold so much, as long as it's the dead of winter and not when it should be fall. so i bitterly endured.


but alas, after a week of meetings, listening sessions, and a hearing...i made it back to dc in one piece, educated in several health care issues, experienced in business travel, and with another state notched in my travel log. so...what's next?

17 More Days

as election day speeds toward us, it is imperative that we understand what is at stake and why we're voting.


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So Close

i hate to be a downer...and though its not 3am or the middle of the night...since i started working my bedtime has come earlier and earlier...so you'll have to excuse typical insomniac, emotional rant.

i know its petty to be worrying about all my little problems with all the things that have been going for me these days...but you know how it is, we always dwell on the things that have come and gone and the things we want but can't have. besides, its human nature to worry about the future, especially when you worry your dreams won't come true.

we judge ourselves by a plethora of measures...wealth, employment, friends, health, family, love. i'm not the wealthiest person, but i'm fortunate enough to be able to stay afloat in these turbulent times as so many others are not. i've finally stole my way into the perfect job, one that i probably didn't deserve. i have plenty of friends who will always be there for me if i needed them and i for them. with my eating and sleeping habits, its unbelievable that i still have my health but i do. and my family will always be the rock upon which i rely.

so with all those things...i should be extremely happy (and i am)...but its that last one that hasn't made me feel complete in a long time. its been a few months now and i still can't get thoughts of the past out of my head, nor do i want to...though there have been many days and even more nights where i hoped that they would just be gone. even as i write this, regret and insecurities rage throughout my mind. but i guess thats the way life goes. like i wrote before...i don't seek perfection anymore, and i guess meeting 5 out of 6 criteria is pretty damn good already. hopefully that last one will work itself out.

One Month Left

just do it...it's your future, it's your life. do something about it....